Thursday, December 03, 2009

Today in history

MZ exercises! Somewhat. =.="

Lawl lawl lawl. (Made this up myself. It says 'lol' IMHO, in a cool way, and even has the word 'law' in it! Awesome-ness, I KNOW ;D )

Haha...feel like a fatty fatty fat fat. And awkward and gawky and lame. Seriously, seriously. Like reallyyyy. Gao meng ah! xD

Exercised, hence today was an interesting day. Okay la, so maybe not interesting after all. But very different. Good enough la! :D

Let's see what tomorrow holds.

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

SMS-es, story tellers in their own right

HOHO. December's here.

Lazily, I woke up to check my phone and finally figured it was high time to clear the messages that had reached an insane figure. After a year, the messages accumulated tell different stories with different people in different situations, different feelings. I have messages sent and received ranging all the way back to SAM Fiesta, when I failed my driving and when I finally passed, about the CF, birthday wishes to friends, random stuff regarding assignments, mindless SMS-es etc etc.

Even simple ones reminds me of a particular situation, a particular concern, a particular inside joke, and of specific people. Not all of them pleasant, but hey, life's not a bed of roses. Nevertheless, it should be embraced in its totality yo. And celebrated, despite its thorns.

I don't want to delete any of the messages now. It's an interesting way to walk through memory lane. Poor phone. :)

Then again, my phone's finite memory will eventually tell me that messages need to be exchanged in the present, and eventually, the past needs to be 'released' (for the lack of a better word in my vocab). Well, unless I copy all 3 thousand plus messages. xD

THE INTERNAL

Scene 1
Curtains are being drawn back, revealing a couple of teenagers mindlessly walking in the park, heading no where, obviously engrossed in their conversation.

A: *exhales*
B: Ya know, I hate to break this to you like this but, we can't undo the past ya know.
A: OOOO!! REALLY?!?! What am I? Five?
B: Sometimes. *chuckles*
A: I know, I know, I know. But I JUST WISH...
B: Yea... we all 'just wish'. Come on, don't you think I feel the same?!

*silence*

A: It's just so...how should I put it. Frustrating? Disappointing? I mean, why does it always turn out this way? WHY WHY WHY?!!?!
B: *shakes head* I don't know, A. I don't know.
A: This is not the first TIME! *kicks a stone*
B: You love stating the obvious, don't you?
A: Haha, it's therapeautic.
B: Riiiiiiiggggggggghhhhhhhhttttttt, just as much as sucking a lemon! Come on, we gotta quit complaining.

*silence. A and B stop walking and sit on a bench and watch the children feed the swans on the lake*

B: *sigh*
A: *sigh*
B: Oh well.
A: Oh well.
A and B: Everything happens for a reason, right?

*Looks at each other and laughs simply.*

B: Uhuh. You got that right! And nothing is left to chance.
A: *nods* We'll get through this, A. We will. Somehow, somehow.

*both stare into space thoughtfully as if they're stoning*

B: Come on, we should be going home. It's late.
A: Mmm.

End of Scene 1

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

Over here Mrs. Hoe!

Pretty Christmas tree, Mrs. Quek, Valerie, MZ, Stephanie, Joel, Mrs. Hoe


HAHA! Joel, Steph and I are doing this together! Since she's probably reading our blogs right now, we just wanted to say to our beloved South Australian Matriculation (SAM) Programme Director...


HI MRS. HOE! *waves and jumps frantically*

Thanks for everything!!! :D

And Merry Christmas!


Try not to forget us!!! Tee hee!


There's this little thing I'm grateful for. Friends that I can find on MSN, bug them like crazy no matter what at any time, share with each other how life is so far, tell LAAAAAME, super sarcastic, funny (or not) jokes, talk about how awesome unknown songs are and gab about the past. Haha! You know who you are, dude. ;D

Decision made!!!!

Finally signed up for Taylor's Law Programme after putting much thought and deliberation into it. PHEW. Relieved like anything. :)

It's amazing how an unsolved problem/dilemma can seem so big...until it's solved. Then, suddenly, it's smaller than a walnet.

Then another one crops up, and we go through it all again. :D

And when we do tumble, we pick ourselves up, dust ourselves as much as we can, and move on.

Monday, November 30, 2009

wooooooooooshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Really lah...

We live and we learn.

Yesterday, learned a thing or two about dreams and surprisingly, about that letting go bit too. And about making choices. Right, responsible choices.

Today, learned a thing about initiative and about controlling one's tongue. And keeping temper in check. Humility too.

Evidently, I've a looooooooooooooooooong way to go. xD

Had a photoshoot today. It was supeeeeerrr random. Eeek. Hopefully it's okay? LOL

Deciphering people is hard. VERY. Especially when emotions come to play. Oh well. :D

ImSoLameItsUnbelievableHahaha

Friday, November 27, 2009

SC and CF

Was part of the SAM Student Council and Taylor's Christian Fellowship when I'm not in classrooms or hanging out with the books.

Met new people, turned friends. They're AWESOME lah. And their dedication...inspiring. :)

In the CF, I feel that their passion is just so encouraging and their just so supportive. I've found real friends in them. It's just so nice to be reminded that I'm not alone in this walk. Love these brothers and sisters in Christ. :)

Got some pretty cool experiences in the SC and CF :D:D

Learned some stuff about my jobscopes in both and stuff about people.

Grew in my walk in the CF.

CAMP WAS THE BOMB!

Yea, I'm blessed to be in both groups. My college life wouldn't be as awesome if it weren't for the SC and CF. LOVE THEM!!! :)

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Small decisions

As if one lenghty post wasn't enough for the day.... xD

Should I? I mean, it seems like the right thing to do right? In fact, it makes COMPLETE sense to do it!

Complete sense, if it wasn't for ONE reason.

Okay, so maybe there are several excuses, but there is only one real reason.

And it's not a small reason la, to me anyway.

But the reason to do it is big too! Way bigger. But the reason not to do it seems more tangible because if I do it, well, it's tangible immediately la.

Perhaps it boils down to how big the real me sees the reason to do it is.

A minor decision, yes. But the decision would tell me a lot about myself and what my stands are, and how strong they are and if you want to dig deeper, what kind of a person I am. And I suppose it's true that if a person can't make the right choice and make a stand regarding small and very 'duh' matters, what more big matters?

As much as I want to do the right thing, I also can't help but consider the reason to 'run' from this.

So what is it going to be?

It's one strong reason to do it versus one strong reason not to do it.

This is where I really decide.

Which, mz? Which is bigger? Which is more important? Which is more significant?

And unlike so many decisions one has to make, the answer to this is plain and obvious.

The problem was never deciding what I should do.

The problem, however, is taking that leap into doing something I wouldn't want to do and would avoid at all cost if not for this ONE big reason to do it.

Help?

Friday morning

It would've been nicer if it was raining last night, but this is good too.

Today, greyish clouds litter the otehrwise clear, orange-bluish sky.

Meanwhile, a flock of birds gracefully flew overhead, like a school of fish dragged by the water current.

Niceee....The garden is lush, in its own right.

Lamp post lights are still on.

A certain peacefulness and serenity linger in the air.

So does a mild scent of cat/dog poop. -.-"

There's a certain patch of clouds that look like clay with hues of orange, blue and grey which is unexpectedly beautiful. Pretttyyyyy.....

A stray bird or two flies ahead once in awhile. Separated from the flock, perhaps?

Though everyone is still in their slumber comfort, some insects/birds are wide awake, lively as ever.

An email just popped up. ____ University wants me! Or so it reads. Exclamation mark included. Flattery.

Corrine's telling me to put my records on.

It would've been nicer if it were windier.

It would've been nicer if I had gotten up earlier to savour such tranquil moments.

It would've been nicer if you were here.

It would've been nicer if the chair was more comfortable.

It would've been nicer if I had a steaaaaaming hawt cup of Milo with me here.

A neighbour's aircondioner-generator-thingy buzzes away as the sun's yellow dissolved the orange in the sky.

A flying insect flies pass near me, a neighbour's cat crosses the street.

Everything is just so quiet. As if everything around is waiting and watching the seconds tick by, holding their breathe for who knows what.

Tick-tick-tick...

I just caught the first gentle, uninvited yet welcomed rays of sunlight. A neighbour walks pass with a child in hand, probably no more than three.

A quarter pass 7, and I anticipate this calm serenity to be broken any time soon with chatter from the humans, more passing cars and the sound of TVs on with kids watching 'Barney' or something just as exhilirating. Some odd sounding insect confirms this.

Another car whizzes by. Probably a father out to earn a living, or a mother out to buy grocerries, or a teenager out to college, in hopes of going to Harvard.

The clouds look like puffed cottons of faint yellow. Lamp posts are still on.

Another email just popped up. I can't help but stretch. This chair really is uncomfortable.

Naw, the morning's not perfect. But none would argue that it is still a morning, nonetheless. And mornings like this may spell beginnings. But I'd like to see the changing hues of early morning skies as not fresh beginnings, but a continuation of what we left of yesterday when we retired to bed. A continuation to RESTART anew. Hence, a combination of a continuation and a beginning. An oxymoron, perhaps, though not too complicated but a beautiful one too, if I may humbly add.

But what did we wake up to today?
Where are we going?
Who knows what awaits us?
Is it a day of happiness, joy and laughter? Or a day of sadness, mourning, doom, gloom, racoon, baboon? (xD)

Question all we want, but no amount of guessing will prepare us for what lies ahead.

So what do we do?

We embrace the morning as a friend. Well, maybe we do know what lies ahead, like perhaps, a lecturer you have to face because you didn't finish your assignment. But at the very first few precious seconds where our heads try to adjust itself in realising that a new day beckons and where blurness of vision and mind are felt, I think it would be harmless to breathe in deep and embrace and celebrate the day, whatever comes our way.

Yeap, embrace it despite it's dry, windless, uncomfortable chair-ness, dog/cat smelling poop-ness.

And despite bwargh-bleeeek-ARGGGGGGGH(!!!)-ness that we anticipate, don't forget the ever changing hues of the skies, or the beauty of the simplicity of the sounds that insects/birds make in the morning.

A dog barks as the plants bask in fresh sun and the birds rejoices at this, for some reason. The sky is now a clean mix of pure white and baby blue, save the distant sun colouring a small part of the sky orange almost as if with child-like innocence. I hear a neighbour wattering his/her plants.

Mmmmm.....

But sometimes, the air can be so dry to soil chokes, the chair feels like it's electric-charged, or the smell of poop becomes toxic, and beauty around seems just so insignificant in comparison to the ugliness around, remember the Creator of it all.

And personally, I think that we can't enjoy and appreciate rain unless we experience a drought. Won't experience joy in its totality unless we experience mourning and sadness. A sofa unless we've sat on an uncomfortable seat. Success unless we've experienced failure. Companionship unless we've felt loneliness. Fresh air unless we've smelt poop. You get my drift.

I wonder how many neighbours are up yet.

And mornings, no matter the kind, are just beautiful, because it spells hope, and His mercy, new every morning.

Oh, the lamp posts are finally off.

We live,
We love,
We forgive and never give up.

For the days we are given are gifts from above,
So today we remember to live and to love.


-We live, Superchick


Good morning, world. The day awaits!!! We won't live to see every morning there is. Likewise our loved ones. Hence, carpe diem.


:)

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams

Put your records on by Corrine Bailey Rae



Three little birds, sat on my window.
And they told me I don't need to worry.
Summer came like cinnamon
So sweet,
Little girls double-dutch on the concrete.

Maybe sometimes, we've got it wrong, but it's alright
The more things seem to change, the more they stay the same
Oh, don't you hesitate.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

Blue as the sky, sunburnt and lonely,
Sipping tea in the bar by the roadside,
(just relax, just relax)
Don't you let those other boys fool you,
Got to love that afro hair do.

Maybe sometimes, we feel afraid, but it's alright
The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change.
Don't you think it's strange?

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

'Twas more than I could take, pity for pity's sake
Some nights kept me awake, I thought that I was stronger
When you gonna realise, that you don't even have to try any longer?
Do what you want to.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

Oh, you're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow
:)


'Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams.' - LOVE LOVE LOVE that line. So catchy! :)

My day's planned agenda of just emersing myself in a good book for hours after settling some stuff failed miserably.

Instead, had a meeting that went well and surprisingly smooth, enjoyed 3 hours worth of meaningful and encouraging conversations, talked to more people and got really good advice and words of reassurance about what I ought to do.

And had a mild heart attack when someone thought SAM results are out. The cherry on the top is hearing the Corinne Bailey Rae song again and again. Ahhhhh.......Reading can be done some other day. :)

I'd say it's been a good day, yes?

YES. And my mind is more at ease now. :D

Everyday is a gift, but for me, today was extra special and un-ordinary. Like hoping to get your fixed 2nd hand Kancil from the workshop as always only to return with a brand new Ferarri and a coupon that says you are entitled to all the chocolate you can eat for the rest of your life!! Wheee~! Well, something like that :D

Will be letting go better now too. There's so much more to life than this. We can't always control how we feel, but we can choose to grow up and make the right choices, with God of course by our side. :)

Oh it's tomorrow already. Super sleeeeeepy. Will hit the sack after hearing Corrine a few million more times. :D

Thank You God for an awesome day! :)

Au revoir!

Sapphire and faded jeans! I HOPE YOU GET YOUR DREAMS PAL!!! ;D